Again...we had another round of discussion with the family members last minute in regards to the wedding.
As confirmed,we are deferring to a later part of next year.
Nasib baik mak andam and DJ is available on the deferred date that we wanted.
I'm left to ask the caterer.
Ewan's caterer and pelamin are all settled,already changed the dates.

Now,we have more time to prepare everything since we have yet to start.
No need to rush for June 2010 already.
Phewww!!!
My plans is to have everything done before raya 2010 so atleast after raya,we both can shake leg and just wait for the day.
haha!
But it's always that whenever we plan to start doing things or prepare slowly,mesti ader je hal-hal yang tertentu!
I don't care...now,die-die must do!
Next month,insya'allah we'll start.
Pressure betol part kahwin-kahwin ni eh!


Till then.

2 weeks ago,I have the thought to defer the wedding.
In a sudden,I just felt that I lost the confidence,trust,faith and everything.
I even lied to him that the reason I wanted to defer was about financial.
Which is also a little true lah...but more of the 2nd line,if you get what I meant.
The feeling of insecure,the feeling of not wanting to get married,the feeling of wantingg to back out at the very last minute...comes angd go.
Playing with my feelings and my imagination will just imagine for the worst.

After considering and much thinkings,we will still go ahead with the plan as I'm afraid that if I were to defer,caterers and mak andams won't be available at the very last minute.
So in December,hopefully we both will be able to do the cards,berkats and marriage course.
Insya'allah...I'm really hoping and praying when the day comes,things are all settled.
Getting married...is really a tough thing!

Next,I'm really counting my days to December as we'll be going back kampong.
Twice in a year!
Kampong pon kampong lah eh since the purpose is to meet his dad and talk about the wedding.
Atleast,being away,de-stress the mind a little.

Sister will be leaving for Australia for her school trip this Sunday and will be back 7 or 8 days later.
I am definitely gonna miss her!
Enjoy your trip okay!
Untung betol budak-budak sekarang eh!
They get to travel here and there!
Kalau kite time dulu-dulu,camping pon setakat kat sekolah je!
If I could turn back time,I wanna be 15 to 18 years old again...

Ahhh...sesungguhnyer,aku dah tua!
Ok,enough for now.
Gotta go and get ready.


Till then.

18th October 2009


That was my 1st show after 10 years.
All was good.
No nervousness,no stage fright although there was a little salah with the steps.
I had fun on stage definitely!
Next show,8th Nov 2009.
Who is performing is still not sure.
The rest of the flicks are in FB.

Up next is the Bravo's big feast at Seoul Garden as one of their team members is leaving.So it's kinda a farewell thing.

We ate like there's no tomorrow.
Almost all of the team members were there I think.
After makan,head down to Geylang for dessert pulak.
We had Durians!
Syiokkk!!!
Didn't stay for long although the night was still young and also I was working the next day.

When the lazyness struck and the mood to update came by,my mind has to go just blank!

Whatever it is,I had my own time with Ewan,sleeping over and all.
And...I've also got the keys to his house from his mom.
Yessssssaaaaa!!!!
Now you can't run away from me boy...!
*evil laughs*


Till then.

So many things happening lately.
But what's important was...mom's doing good now and insya'allah,in times to come too!

Raya's over.
My last raya this year was with APD Bravo.

9 houses in total and we ended earlier than last year.
All in all,although I was not looking forward to this year's raya,coz mum was sick and that both me and Ewan was on budget for our preparation.I still had fun.

I've started on a new job in Chinatown,doing car insurance.
Back to my old line which I'm much more familiar with.
Pay wise,a little better...
Environment,nothing much as there's only 6 of us including my boss and his wife.
Now that they are shifting office in a condominium,I can't wait as we will have the privilege to use the pools and gym.
Lunch will not be a hassle too as we can cook in the kitchen.
But that will only be in May 2010.

Love...
So far,alhamdulillah...although at times I still feel insecure.
Ewan's trying his best to make things better and change.
But still,I'm not gonna put high hopes any more like I used too.
Once bitten,twice shy...
Anyway,it's rather too early to judge on the changes.
Only time will really,really tell.

Lots of things coming up despite the little time.
I don't know if we can manage.
But insya'allah...sampai harinye,hopefully things are all ready,including the 2 of us.

Gotta stop here now.
Have to get good rest since I've got a show later with the Widyasari babies.
And that will be my 1st show after...10 long years.
Good Luck!


Till then.

EVP-ians Beraya lagikkk 09!!!
It was again another once a year gather besides the usual gatherings we had.
They rented the bus...while me in the car as Ewan was driving.
Although not the full squad of us EVP-ians,we still had fun though.

All in all,they visited 14 houses which ended at 2am I think.Again,I didn't managed to complete till the last house as Ewan was tired from his game before he joined me and the rest.
Now that we have completed our 2009 EVP-ians Raya,I bet they there will be more upcoming events.
Like...we are planning on either chalet or another barbeque in December,the girls plan to Bintan and lots more!

Nothing else to update besides this.
As usual,peek-tures in FB.
Tomorrow will be my last Raya for 2009 I think with Team Bravo.
And the next day will be my first day working in a new environment.


Till then.

I know this is very,very late....but heck,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI,
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

My raya was just okay.

Just that this year,a little special since we have the 'Anak Hantu' with us on our 1st and 2nd day.
Ewan,1st day raya je dah accident.Lucky thing he was okay...only the bumper of our car was damaged and the other party's car was a little dented.

Managed to visit my dad,unlike last year...

Looking at how age-ing he is,I realised that maybe it's about time I start visiting him often.Didn't managed to tag along with Dad doing visitings on his side as us trio,me,bro and Ewan had some other places to go with mom.
We didn't even managed to complete all house in just 1 day!

2nd Day...
Both me and Ewan had to divide our time.
1st half of the day with me and my family doing visitings,
the other half of the day with Ewan and his family doing their visitings.
It was chaotic for me.
I was cranky...which is nothing new.
Things got screwed up on Ewan's side...testing my patience plus I was having headache.
Macam mane agaknyer when we are married later...mesti ade difficulties dividing time to do visitings!
I didn't even have the mood to flick here and there.
But whatever it is,I had a good time.

Let's sidetrack a little...
Mom has been 'sick' since the fasting month...and that was the reason why I said my raya was just okay.Relatives have been telling me that she looked different,which I realised too...
But in this case,I don't know what can be done...besides berubat which doesn't even work.
Last night,she fainted at home after she drank the air zam-zam.And she even complaint that she felt 'different'.
I was sitting beside her and I had goosebumps lah okay.
Aku ni lemah semangat...but I have to be strong for her since I'm the eldest.
Now,all I hoped for is for her to get back to her normal self the soonest...
Insya'allah,amin...

Suddenly,I feel that 2009 has been a bad one for me.
But after my incident,after what happened to me and my relationship...the bonds between me,parents and siblings got even closer.
Ewan and my siblings...they are closer now too!
People always say...'segala ape yang terjadi,ade hikmah disebaliknye'...
And I always said to myself too that maybe all this will be a blessing in disguise.
Insya'allah...things will be better in times to come.

I gotta get to sleep now since it's already 7am!
Got visitings to do later.


Till then.

I had a good weekend last week.
Together with family,Ewan and Team Bravo.

Saturday,as planned weeks ago was iftar with the whole family at my uncle's place in JB.Ewan tagged along as he was supposed to be the one driving.But since Dad was not working,he drove instead.
We went by 2nd-link,stopped at Angsana to get kuihs and then to Uncle's place.
After iftar,we went Pandan City.
That place...dah macam Petaling Street lah okayyy!!!Only that I think Petaling Street is wayyyy better!
The drivers got lost while looking for us as we got off from the cars first while they lookout out for carpark.
It was super,super stuffy that I mandi sweat!And mom too pitam-pitam.
Left Pandan City,head home,got change and back to Ewan's place.

Since it was his birthday on the 13th Sept,I sleptover his place.
And as we were still in the car on the way back when the clock struck midnight,I had no choice but to wish him in the car itself,together with Mom,Dad and sister.
Birthday pon falls on a fasting day,there was nothing much we could do.Except that plan has been made.
Iftar with the Team Bravo at Kampon Chai Chee and then Geylang after.
Believe it or not...this year,I only went Geylang just that once!
I don't really have anything to buy as Mom have already sewed 3 baju's for me and sister.
Got him his kurungs and then left for home.

And yesterday,was iftar and K-Nite with the EVP-ians.
After months of not having fun,we met for iftar and discussed in regards to jalan raya.
Parted ways with them at 12am since something cropped up at home.

Now...now...
3 more days to raya...
damn fast or what???
Good thing I don't have much preparation to be done this year for myself.
Friday will be on half day...
Need to put up the curtains,mop the house and all.
Excited ader...not looking forward to raya pon ade!

Dahlah...
Got to go.
More pictures in FB or Multiply lah eh.


Till then.