Deepest condolences to the family of a girlfriend,Siti Nuraini,who passed away yesterday in JB due to a motor accident.

She was a classmate during my secondary school days.

It was too shocking for most of us that some,including me,didn't actually believe the news.

I feel that it was just some months ago that I saw her in Wisma when she was still working in Bebe.

It's sad that she left at such a young age.

Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatas roh-nya...amin.

Last Friday was just the day I was waiting for.

A heart to heart talk together with his mum over what happened.

My decision was to leave that very night but his mum insist to talk things out together.

Now that he knows how I feel,I hope,whatever he has promised right infront of his mum's presence and me,would be the last one.

I can never always be the forgiving one when the other party keeps repeating the same mistakes.

I have to thank MIL for making things right for us,for making us still stick together.

"Dearest Ewan,

I hope you'll mean whatever you've promised me and ibu.I can never tolerate any more nonsense after this.Like I've said,after last Friday,anymore shits from you,no matter how much I'll regret leaving you,I will have to.I can't keep giving you chances over and over again.
Because of the love that I've been having for you that is too strong,I decided to stay.
I really hope that you'll change this time.
Love you sweetheart!"


Till then.

Too disappointed.Too disappointed.Too disappointed.

I don't know if I should really mean what I've said,

I don't know if I should really leave this time.

One thing after another,

disappointment after disappointment.

I've like had enough of everythink.

Love life's getting too messed up and topsy-turvy slowly.

Haizzz...

What's next?

I was on MC on Friday.
Had fever due to the swollen gums I had from the growing wisdom tooth.
I couldn't even talk properly and had to rely on porridge for meals.
So sickening!
And up till today,it's not getting any better.
Hopefully by tomorrow so I can eat better food rather than porridge!

How was my V-day?
Nothing special since I don't celebrate.
It's like everyday is a love day for me.
I went out from home as early as 0830am for Ewan's tournament.
But yesterday's match was not a full day basis.
So he ended his game at 1pm,bus-ed back to his place for him to change and then to my place for me to change,then train-ed to town.
We had Sanur for late lunch cum dinner and just walked around,shopped a little and then back home to his place.

Last night was a mess,after I found out things that really disappoint me.
I really don't know till when he can keep disappointing me.
This is not the first since we got back together.
How many chances can I keep giving him?
How many sorries can I tolerate?
And the sad thing is,after 5 months,he's still saying he's trying his best to change?
What is that for?
Is this what I deserved for trying to be a good fiancee for the second time,promising to my very own self that I will change for the best for us,for the future that we have been wanting 2 years ago,promising to myself that history won't repeat,promising to myself that I will never hurt him like I did before...?
Or is this what I deserved for doing shits to him and that it's coming back to me?
I've never asked anything much from you since we got back,but all I've asked for is the old you....
Sometimes I think it's true when people say,'The person you love most,will be the person who hurts you the most."

Today will be the semi-finals and finals of yesterday's tournament which I'm not able to tag along as he will be going to work after that.
&&& he was telling me yesterday that he has been asked to go for the National team training next tuesday.
That's definitely an achievement for him but hopefully when he's already committed in the national training,we both won't drift apart due to our busy schedules.
Whatsmore when I think he sometimes has to go overseas for trainings and tournaments just like this coming May or so that he might be going Australia for tournament.
So,hopefully today they will be another champion!


Till then.

This was taken earlier just now.
We took the kids out to makan and jalan-jalan in town.
Initially,the idea was to bring them to Sentosa,but since Apul was having ugame that he can't skipped,we ditched that idea.
& I know my sister was bored and I think she was also bored with one of her friend,therefore,came the idea to bring them out together with us.

Sister wanted to go to the Nike Sale at Expo badly,but upon reaching Expo,the entrance queue was supersupersuper long.And it was only till 7pm when we only got there at 6pm.So,we gotta ditched that idea again and head to Clarke Quay for late lunch come dinner.
Right after dinner,since there will be Thaipusam tomorrow (as in Sunday),we walked from Clarke Quay,passed by the temple which will be their last stop,although they will only start walking at 2am later and then to town and back home since Apul's life battery was almost flat.

I am supposed to be sleeping now as I gotta wake up at 7am later since Ewan will be having his takraw tournament at Bedok and that he will be fetching me at 8am.
Speaking of that,it's been very long since I last accompanied him for his tournaments.And I definitely missed him in action!heh.
I am sure that I'll be whining I'm sleepy...bla...bla...bla...!
Whatsmore when later I might be going out to watch Thaipusam with mom,dad,sister and brother.Ewan had to skipped since he needs to save his energy for the game.I'm excited to watch!..It's been 2 years that I watched Thaipusam!
Hmm...a little looking forward to it tho'.
Macam aku pulak yang celebrate!
Haha.

Gotta go now.


Till then.

I am back!
Back from my super short getaway on a cruise with the others of the Team Bravo besides Ewan.

We were supposed to meet the rest of the mates at Harbourfront at 9pm,but since Ewan came to my place to help mom with shifting the fridge,and also since he have yet to pack his bag,therefore we skipped meeting his mates at 9pm.We left his place only at 8pm but still we reached Harbourfront rather early as the ship will only sail at 11pm and the latest timing we have to check in was by 1030.

We got our room on the 9th floor,with no seaview.

It was rather small tho,but for the 2 of us,considered okay lah kan.
After settling our stuffs,we managed to have dinner/supper,and then walked around to see what was in the cruise.Maklomlah...first time katekan!
Since it was already late and there was nothing much we could do,them boys planned to berjudi.
They have already planned this even before this cruise-ing thing I guess coz all came with their own bag of coins.

See,this was what I meant.
They made one of the room as their tempat perjudi-an.And and they judi-ed till morning lah eh!
I was already asleep while halfway watching them judi-ed.

Come the 2nd day,we went for breakfast as early as 7am!Mentang-mentanglah most of them tak tido...

...and they were too excited to swim and try the jacuzzi.

Too excited to play with the slides and all,in the end they only spent 20 minutes playing around with water!
Semua dah ngantok sangat!
Went back to our rooms,washed up and got some sleep.
We woke up at 1pm since there will be a pit stop at Port Klang.
Some decided to stay in the ship and continue sleeping while some decided to do some shopping.
It was stated in the papers that it will take atleast 1 hour 30 minutes for us to go KL.
So myself,Ewan and the other 2 boys went KL,Petaling Street since 1 of the boys have never been there.
We went free and easy instead of tour.Coz if we were to go by tour,time was restricted.We have to be back in the ship by 9pm.
Those who went by tour left KL at 6pm,while the four of us,we only left at 7pm.We even sempat to have super late lunch!

We got back half an hour early although there was traffic jam everywhere.
As usual,them boys will continue their perjudian and me,as usual will fall asleep halfway.

Last day,we woke up at 1030 as we had to leave the room by 12pm for the crews to clear the mess.
We managed to grab breakfast although things were quite in a rush and the buffet area was super crowded.
A last group photo of them boys before we go our separate ways.

I had fun together with them as always whenever they have their soccer match.

So...tomorrow,might be bringing the kids to Sentosa as the privilege tickets that Ewan got last year have not been used.

And Sunday,will be accompanying Ewan for his takraw match at Bedok.If it's not a full day competiton,we might be heading Dhoby Ghaut for the yearly Thaipusam.

I got to go now.
Got to get ready for supper.
**For more photos,it's in my multiply.


Till then.

My weekends was a good one although it meant we only stayed home.

Since I slept over at his place on Saturday,the both of us decides spending quality time together since we have been having much arguements lately.

It was also because I've already planned a week earlier that we should be cleaning his house that Sunday,and we did!

Now it's all neat and tidy,spick and span!

Slowly...I feel the honeymoon period is coming back again...

I realised that it's only when we are together outside or at home that we can never argue.

Tapi bile tak jumpe,macam anjing dengan kucing,lagik-lagik aku!

Atleast he's showing some changes tho'.
(Jangan semangat 2 minit je eh boy!)

I'm happy enough for that.

Anyhoos,1 more day to go before we depart for our super short getaway on Wednesday night.

Yeay-ness!!!

That means....another holiday for me.

But after this,strictly no more travelling.

It's time to think of the future honey!!!


Till then.