Took a last minute half day off from work yesterday.
It's the toothache again.
The pain was unbearable,causing me to have difficulty munching foods.
I could only eat porridge.
I've been having this for quite sometime.
Dentist advise was to extract both teeth out.But to do so,I've to go for a minor operation which is still undecided by me.
I'm actually considering...the pains of the injections,needles and whatnots.
But if I never extract it out,I'll have to bear the pain as it always comes and go.
Now,I think I really really need to consider bout it.
Hmm...oh ya!I've received the lappy delivery yesterday as well.Still takin time to go about it.Will get use to it sooner or later.
I super can't wait for the shopping spree today & tomorrow.I've quite a few things that I wanna buy.For myself,my family and him.
Next Thursday,have planned to go out party-ing and let loose.Been so long.Like finally.And most probrably,I'll be party-ing single handedly.Without him.That's a maybe.Super can't wait for that too!
What else eyy?..
I think nothing much lah for now.
Better get goin then.
TGIF!!!
Till then.
Good deeds/news have been flowing in my life for the past few days which make me happy.
After the good news yesterday on my new lappy,I received good news again today.
&&& I'm like super fuckin happy!!!
As I stepped into the office after minutes,I was called in to my boss room.He talked to me bout my work and all.
He's happy coz I improved for this 1 year in the company.
Yes,I admit,when I first started,it was difficult.
Personal problems was brought in which affected my work so much and that my confirmation was extended to 4 months instead of the usual 3.
I had my puntuality & MC(s) problem as well.
But...I managed to be strong.As I loved the job,I decided to buck up and change for the better before they have the thought to sack me.Alhamdullilah,I changed in matter of times despite many naggings from the my boss & ladyboss,and that brought me to live my career in the company up to a year now...& hopefully counting to many years to come.
Therefore,he presented me a cheque.I was shocked!At the same time happy and I feel like crying.He said,"I've seen you improved for the past 1 year,I shall present you with half month bonus".
I was trembling!!!
I really didn't expect this!
My hard work really pays off.Although it's only for half a month,it's better than nothing.
What more can I ask for now?
Life has been beautiful for me since.
I'm grateful for that.
Till then.
weeeeeee!!!
I'm so happy!!!
I finally have my own lappy,whatsmore with a free 3 in 1 printer.
The one I just posted yesterday,exactly same colour,green.
Yeah,I've made my decision.
I mean it's not only for my own use.But although there's another computer at home,I'll still let my siblings use it whenever they want.
As long as they pandai jage sudahlah!
Now,I can't wait for it to arrive safely at home.Can't wait to meddle with it.
weeeeeee!!!
It just feels good when you can actually splurge yourself with all the things that you want,with your own cash.
Contented for now!
Till then.
Finally, his machine was out last evening.
Cost a bomb on him.
But,he's happy to get it back after being away from it for 2 freaking weeks.
So,yesterday,as he's not yet done settling his machine's stuff,I head down to aunt's place after work while waiting for him.
He picked me up at 8.45 and we chilled somewhere,where we could have a heart to heart talk.(chey!macam paham heart to heart!) As I have been giving him the cold shoulders eversince,I decided to go smooth last night and be all lenient.I forced myself to eventhough I was still mad.
But then he could only make me happy for a while.For sure there'll be things that ruined my mood.He starts blabbering...blabbering about work.Oh god!To speak the truth,my heart has gone stale to advise him whenever it comes to work.I'm drop dead serious!No matter how hard he tried to explain last night,whatever he said still won't get into my brain.Aku masok kiri,keluar kanan!
I'm seriously tired of doin that.And I gave up doin so.My patience is running low.He's still fickled of what he wants in life.He really is.Or shall I say confused?Whatsmore,unstable mentally & physically.
Like what I said last night,I will never interfere in any of your job affairs and I meant it.Whatever that comes by,you settle it yourself.You chose your life that way,so leave me out of it.I can't be helping you all the time.It's time you stand on your 2 blardy feet since you're being fickled.Only when I see that you're stable in everything,then I'll reconsider whether I should interfere or not.
You said that you're gonna prove me wrong aye?Bring it on baby && show me what you've got!I'll be waiting...
All I know...as long as MY LIFE is good and not topsy-turvy and that I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING,it's enough for me.
Get all that I said in your tiny brain.I don't want you to make a decision that you'll regret later.It will just be a waste.
Till then.
**In life,you can never hope or expect everything to be perfect.It needs a whole lot of practice.Just like the saying goes,"Practice makes Perfect"...
Nothing much to update.
Practically lazy.
Just some random updates okay.
Weekends was...as usual.
Both Saturday & Sunday was spent with family.
Saturday went out with mum to pay all the house bills and whatnots.
As I woke up having migraine,I ate the painkiller before goin out without thinkin that it may cause drowsiness and nausea.Somemore,eaiting it on an empty stomach!
I kept walkin & walkin...if I were to stop or seat,I would definitely throw up.I hurried mum,tahan-ing wanting to vomit till I reached home.
And that whole Saturday seem to be very restless for me.
I've stopped takin that painkiller.I don't wanna throw up everytime I eat it.Whatsmore,not even having any appetite to eat.All I wanted to do was just sleep!chet!
Sunday,we went out early as mum wanted to go Geylang.It's been long since mum splurge on us and yesterday,she did.She bought each of us stuff but nothing for her.We had 4 pitstops that day.Causeway Point,Geylang,Bugis & Toa Payoh.
Now,I think I wanna splurge myself on this:
It was on a good deal when I saw it.I've discussed with mum & him which they also think it was a good deal after explaining.Well,I'm still doin my research and thorough thinkings.
Between me & him,we have not been on a good sail eversince that heated arguments.I mean...he's already over it,&& me too.But, it's just that I've been givin him that cold shoulders.I know I'm at fault for doin that but at times,he's questions are just freaking iritating that freaks me out totally and got me iritated.
I just need time to...you know,make my veins all loose.I know after that,after I've cooled,and that I'm being myself,for sure I'll say sorry...for sure I'll be that apologetic!
Just be patience with the way I am as much as I am with yours.
Till then.
I'm torn.
Torn and ripped into 2.
I'm not good in making decision.
I sucked when it comes to that.
Whatsmore when it's something that has got to do with my future.
urrghh!
Nevertheless,his company last night did bring back the past.
As he talked,I knew he was gonna burst anytime soon.
But,I changed the subject before he starts breaking down.
I still wonder,
why is he still good to me after things that has happened?even when he said he can't move on that easily,i believed.
Yes,he's happy.But deep down,I knew...
Still,I never fail to say this to him,
If we are destined to be together,we will one day.
I shall not rant any further in regards to this.
Till then.
**Fate is definitely not in our hands,but HIS.
Chinese New Year holidays was the best as I spent all my days with the family.
On the eve itself,I met mum,my 2 younger siblings,Aufa & Amir and their mum,we had lunch at Sakae Sushi.
On Thursday,we spent the first day of CNY over at Granny's.
Then on Friday,we had a long day out.We went out at 1.30,having Abg Taufik and Kak Shikin fetching us up at home.
Initial plan was to go for a picnic at Sentosa.But when we reached Palawan,it was scorching hot as we have got that 2 little kids with us.So we made another plan to Vivo.Had our lunch at Earle Swensens.And that place,foods really cost a bomb!The food is worth it but not the price definitely.They didn't have that many varieties for the main dishes but they do have a lot of varieties for desserts.Nevertheless,I still prefer Swensens.
After lunch,we walked around Vivo even tho many of the shops were closed.Then Mum decided to go back home as she felt bad coz Dad was sick.When we got home,Mum was being fickled whether to watch the fireworks or not.Since the kids wanted to,we went out again after maghrib prayers.We found a good spot to catch the fireworks.But I was lazy enough to video cam it.
The fireworks lasted for a mere 5 minutes.Yes,I know it's pathetic.But it's worth watching with your loved ones around.Since Abg Taufik parked the car over at Fullerton's carpark,we walked and had Fullerton Hotel as our last pit stop of the day.We had desserts and drinks before ending the day.
Since I've got no plans on Saturday,I received a call from Yati.It was news we were waiting for.Our ITE classmate,Farah had gave birth to a healthy baby girl on the 5th February 2008.So me & Yati met up at 3.30 and head over to Farah's crib.
Najwa Zarah.That's her newborn baby's name.And she resembles more of her father.
Now,they are one complete family just as what Azhar has been wanting for a long time after they got married.
So,my classmates from ITE,Yati & Farah have all settled down and having their kids.
While Aida,is still struggling being a single mom.Not even sure when will she settle down.
Fir,the only man among the four of us,is still hanky-panky-ing around.
And me,still stucked on the shelf.I don't even know when will it be my turn.
heh.
I used to have the thought of wanting to get married before the age of 25,but tak kesampaian.Now,I hope to get married before I reach 30!Coz if after 30,will be too old for me to settle down and have kids.
Haha.
So berangan lah aku!
Back to work tomorrow...
dammit!
Okok.
Till then.
