Alhamdulillah...

Today is the 3rd day of Ramadhan and I managed to fast since the start.

1st day was rather a bad one.

Break-fast over at Gran's place and she cooked my favourite laksa.

But I threw up everything that I ate when I got home.After that onwards,I was afraid to eat so much.

As whenever I eat,I feel like vomitting again.

Takot termuntah lagikkk!

Tak sanggop!

It's only the 1st week of Ramadan.

Soon I'll have to start cleaning up the house as I bet that time will definitely pass fast without us realizing.

And also at the same time,I have to really,really start preparing for my wedding,goin for the kursus,buying of the exchange gifts and all.

Now then I feel the rush to prepare all those things as I find that I will have little time.

Whatsmore when Ewan's off days is not fixed,while mine is.

No more hegeh-hegeh already!

Bulan puase nie...ade jugak orang menguji kesabaran aku!

Don't make me hate you with the way you are ok.

Stop testing my patience.

You said you'll change but I think everything is still the same.

I still get mad over things.

Sometimes I wonder is it U or is it ME?

Please lah okay...our big day is nearing.

We definitely need each other's back.

I don't want the way you are terbawak-bawak sampai after we get married.

BIG NO-NO okay!

The fact is, you know that we still need each other.

So...please.

Till then.

I am back after a little busy week!

My 24th birthday was well spent although I was rather moodless.We went Sentosa since I wanted to,tanning and sitting by the beach.

Ewan got me a little something which was really unexpected.And that thing was the cause of our arguement which almost made me lost my relationship.

Come Saturday,it was W I D Y A S A R I's National Day show at Yuhua Village.I didn't get to perform since I have yet to master all the steps.Like I've said before,I have to brush up on alotta things in tarian!

So I only managed to help them with their hair and make-ups.

Believe it or not,it was my first time dolling people up.

Things got screwed up in the beginning,mane takder orang make-up,mane yang samping satu missing!

It was a lil' disaster.

But when they got up the stage to perform,all went smoothly!

Congrats girls!!!

I think something is wrong with blogger!
Iritating ah!
Nevermind,I'll update and then edit it later.

Howells...back to work after a long weekend.
But I'll be on half day tomorrow.My boss,being the good one gave me a half-day off for my birthday present.
And Wednesday,I'll be on leave since I wanted to go Sentosa with Love,just the 2 of us as we we won't be celebrating my birthday tomorrow since he just came back from his night shift.
I am hoping so much that it won't be raining on Wednesday.

It was Singapore's 44th Birthday yesterday.
I did nothing but stayed home during the weekends except for Saturday,accompanying Ewan for his soccer match.

Ewan has shown a little change since the latest arguments,but I don't want to predict now.
It's still wayyy too early to judge if the changes are for good or just....semangat 2 minit je!
Definitely,semangat 2 minit bo-layan lah kan!
He knows me well how I'll react...


So,I'll come back to update after my birthday leave,
insya'allah.


Till then.

Last night,me and Ewan had a long talk after our arguement.

I feel we really need to work things out.

Something happened on Tuesday which I won't elaborate.

Since that day I don't know if I should believe whatever he said although he meant good just to get something for my birthday which was supposed to be a surprise.

Honestly,I've never trusted him since the incident that happened months ago.

I got so tensed that I hurled vulgarities,I threw my ring at him.

I felt so lost,not knowing what else to do to make my relationship bloom just like the past.

Truthfully I told him that the feelings that I've been having for him is slowly fading away that at times,whenever a mistake occured,it can never bother me that much.

Sometimes,I can't even bring myself to face him although it wasn't my fault.

I really,really want us to be like how we used to.

Being so in love with each other,walking hand in hand,laughing and being happy together.

'Honeymoon period' is over I guessed.

But what I fear most now is that I'm afraid the love that I've always had for him will totally run dry.

I don't want that to happen whatsmore when we are settling down soon.

I want things to change between us.

I don't want the love to fade,I don't want us to fall apart.

Semoga dimurahkan rezeki dan dipanjangkan umor...

Amin.

Weekends was just okay.

Mainly spent with the family at Sentosa Cove and sleepover Saturday and Sunday at Love's place.

And so,things are a little settled since we have seen Kak Yana (LAB Bridal) last Friday to talked about the wedding package for Ewan.

Although a little settled,I still find that there's many things that needs to be done like the exchange gifts,marriage course,ROMM Registry etc.

Alotta things yet so little time.

So that means after raya,we'll be going JB to survey or maybe tempah straight our berkats and invitation cards.

We have 10 more months to settle everything.

And now,when I think about our preparation,suddenly it came to my mind that I strictly can't shop until the day comes.

uuurrgghhhhh!!!!

geram,geram,geram!

I have to wear whatever that I have first.

So sad...

9 more days till the day I turn 24.

sounds old kan!

I don't know what we'll be doing since we really have to save for the preparation and big day.

Told Love that maybe we'll just go Sentosa since I'll be taking leave.

Shall see how things go.

Back to work tomorrow after 4 days of rest!!!

Till then.