Shits,shits and more shits coming in for me I guess!

All this shits coming from my man himself!

The grips that I've been holding on to this relationship is really getting loose each day.

Chances after chances!

Keep saying sorry,each time shits happened,but what's the use?

Just what is your fucking problem!?

I'm seriously in no mood for LOVE now,

those honeymoon periods that we used to have,I just don't know where has it gone to.

Those happy moments,those laughters...

just where is everything that we used to have!?

But after all the pains,why is my heart still saying that I still do love you?

& because of the love I still have for you,I kept giving you chances.

I get pains in return on top of all that.

Just when are you gonna change your fuckin blardy atttitude as you have always promised!?

When?

When I've finally make a decision to return you my ring,is it?

When I've finally make a decision to move on with life without you,is it?

Please lah eh,I've had enough nonsense.

Think of what you are gonna do,without having me to always keep repeating things.

I'm seriously dead tired.

I wanna be happy with you.

But now,I feel like it's just impossible for me to be happy...

As said,last Monday I had a movie with Love and his team mates.

We watched Ong Bak 2.

Best till I was too engrossed watching it!

After the movie,while some of them when for Karaoke-ing and bowling,we both went home since he was on morning shift the next day.

Nothing much happened this week coz we didn't see each other that much.

It was only on Friday that we get to spend some time together since I slept at his place.

& Saturday,we got into an arguement before I left for work,whatsmore with me having bad migraine just afterI woke up.

That arguement got me saying things which I'm not supposed to,and got me tearing as well.

It was just a small matter but I was too disappointed with him.

Maybe,it's true when people say that "2nd time won't be the same as the 1st" (if you people get what I mean).

But like I've said many,many times,I just can't be bothered.What for kannn?Peningkan kepale sendiri jek!!

And today,I have to skipped my part-time work.

It's the time of the month,and the cramps are just too painful.

Another thing before I go,my leave for the Cruise trip with team Bravo has been approved!

Yeayyy!

Now,I can't wait for that.


Till then.

Life has been pretty much like a busy bee.

Having to manage life with the man,having to manage with 2 jobs at a time,both part-time and full-time.

Yes,I've started my part-time job even before I left for KL.
Hmm...so far so good.
I work for the money what!
So the rest can put aside.
& I've started coming back on Saturdays to my full time job just today,alternately.

Life with the man,Ewan...
I must say,there's many downs at the moment,
mainly because of his attitude.
Till there's time where I asked to be separated.
But I know people makes mistakes although it's not a major one.
I don't know why,when it comes to Ewan,whenever I'm not happy with his attitudes,I tend to forgive and give him chances after chances.
He's been making a number of promises which have yet to be fulfilled that I'm always upset and disappointed about.
LAZY-NESS suddenly became part of his life besides me.
And because of that lazy-ness,we have to always argue.
Kalau nak kate dier penat keje,aku pon penat keje,whatsmore with 2 jobs in hand.
Ahhh....!
I'm like totally lazy to talk much already.
That's the reason why now our conversations has gone lifeless.
Whatever he says,I'll just go,'ah','okay','ah','okay'.
Itu je lah yang mampu aku jawab sekarang.
Besides that,nothing else.
Dahlah...bobal panjang-panjang kat sini pon tak gune if things will still be the same.

I just came back from aunt's place visiting my grandmother as she will be admitted to SGH on Monday for her leg operation.
Hopefully,everything will be alright.
So basically,this will be my Saturday.

Come Sunday tomorrow,will be accompanying Ewan for his monthly soccer match with his team mates before he leaves for his night duty.
And then Monday will be movie date with him and his team mates as well.

I think that's all I have for this entry.


Till then.

Yeayyy!!!

Like finally,I've found my engagement pictures!

All thanks to the man,who has been keeping it at his place when I was like a mad woman searching for it in my room few days ago!

Thanks eh!

The rest will be up in my multiply although it's not that much.


Till then.

I can't wait for my Saturday & Sunday coz...

I am missin my Ewan!!!

Yes,aku miss kau!

Sister was admitted to KK hospital last nite because of the HFMD thing.

But she can be discharged tomorrow.

Alhamdulillah...

Get well soon dearest,love you okay!


Till then.

I am definitely missin Love.

He's back to work today after being on leave for 10 days.

We spent the night together yesterday,counting down the minutes to 2009 at home.

And tonight,it's time I snap myself back to reality since I'll be resuming work tomorrow.

Now,I'll wait for February to come coz it's gonna be another holiday for us (I think) before both me and Ewan starts saving again!

On another note,little sister got HFMD yesterday and got 10 days MC.
Hopefully it's nothing serious and for her to get well soon.

Ok,I'm done.


Till then.