I hate this!

I hate the fact that he's leaving me for Perth and maybe KL cum next year!

For what?

For his takraw trainings lor!

1 week!

You may say,'alah...next year pe...1 week je pe...'

But ey,1 week can do wonders you know!

What am I gonna do?

Yes,I know,to fill my time with family and friends.

But then again,the feeling is different okay.

I won't get that tight hugs and wet kisses from him!

Alah!

Benci!Benci!Benci!

Whenever he speaks of it,I can't help it but to feel sad and I'll definitely cry bout it.

Emo lah gitu!

Maner taknye,it's like everyday we are together.

Ewan darling...jangan lah pegi...

Please...

On another note,

I hell load miss my Thurday nights partying my ass off!!!

Dy,let's go on the 20th okay?

Please...

It's gonna be end of the year soon,and then it'll be 2009.
Time is just so freaking fast.
I've like got so many,many,many things in my head.
&&& I need so much time for that many,many things.
So time,be slow and steady for me please!


Till then.

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU,
to this 2 lovebirds.

Alhamdulillah...after many ups and downs that they encountered in their relationship since our secondary school days,sampai jugak ke jinjang pelamin.

Congrats to them both!

On another note,I hate it when it comes to 'kahwin-kahwin' ni sume!
People will definitely ask a very tough question.
"When is your turn?"
Hmm...and then I'll go, "Insya'allah..."

Yes,I've always hate that question although I tend to envy those who's married and with kids,and although I know that stage of life is hard.

When Ewan and myself got engaged last year,paling lambat we ikat was 2 years,so that means,if not by next year,we'd have already tie the knot.
But since now dah 'terbantot' kan,maklomlah...baru aje reconciled,Ewan was saying hopefully in 2 years,which is 2010,we'll settle down.
Mom was also saying a while ago that it's time I think of my marriage.
Duhhh!

Like old people say...
'Kite hanya merancang,Tuhan yang menentukan'.

Insya'allah...if we both are meant to be for each other,we'll be...and work hard for what we have planned.

Just put marriage aside and not think about it.


Till then.

New addition in our family...

Nur Syuhadah Insyirah

Yes,my last aunt gave birth to this little gendut in the early morning at 2.14am,on 24th October 08.

So,that means...another niece for me!
And that also means,starting from next year,additional duit raya.
Another GENDUT in the house!!!

Now,I shall find time to visit this babygirl,anytime soon I hope.


Till then.

I hate people poking their nose in my blardy pants!

Seriously,I hate this.

Please,please mind your own fuckin' business alrite'!


Till then.

And so...I'm finally done with my raya this year.
Raya dah nak abis pon!
Still,last weekends was filled with Raya visitings with the EVP-ians on Saturday.

As usual,it will all be the usual suspects.
Some couldn't make it.
Still,there were 20 of us in all,just nice for the bus we rented.
Yang tempang pon jalan with us dengan crutches.
Just two days after the accident.

Ini jiwe namenyer!

We managed to cover everybody's houses.
And this year,almost every house we went,there's food.
Macam nak meletop perot aku!
As I was gonna have a long journey back home,I didn't join them for the last house.
Maklomlah...aku sorang yang tinggal north.Yang lain semua kat east side!
Got home,washed up and off to Ewan's place.

Sunday,
No plan for us.
So I went over to Ewan's place and we stayed home the whole day only to go out for his daily takraw.
Quality time lah gitu!

Come Monday,I was on leave.
And his team planned to go jalan raye.
Pelik kan....jalan raye on a weekdays.
Biaselah,orang kalau keje shift,susah for them to have offs all on the same day.
So,it was Team Bravo's raya outing.

It was a total of 5 cars and a bike.
We covered 11 houses in all and the last house was at 12.30am.
I was so tired and sleepy by then plus the nausea feelings I was having.
Maybe because I had too much fillings in my stomach that I feel like vomitting at the end of the day.

And now,I guessed I have gained many kilos from those 2 outings over the weekends.
It's time for me to throw all those fats away!

On another note,
we are back together.
Yes,me and the ex-fiance decided to give ourselves a 2nd chance to work things out.
Both of our families gave us their blessings,despite whatever happened in the past.
We have also gotten our rings back respectively,

It's time for us to mend whatever happened before,to be better this time.
So baby,let's throw the past and start anew.
Insya'allah,things will go just fine,the way we have always wanted it to be.


Till then.

After days of being super upset, super disappointed,super angry,

after much vulgarities thrown at each other 2 days ago,
we are back on track as per normal.
Alhamdulillah...

Remember sweetheart,you've promised me you'll change.
Show me what you've got!
ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS.
Although I'm okay now,whatever I've said to you in all the messages,I mean it okay.
Don't think that I'm fooling around.
It's about time I be serious.
So,bear all of that in your head.

Anyways...
nothing much to update.
Tomorrow will be the 2nd raya outing for the EVP-ians.
Then I'll be on leave on Monday,which will also be jalan raya-ing with Ewan's colleagues.

So...I'll be back with those pictures soon!


Till then.

Wackyyy Weekends!

Saturday was spent sleeping over at Ewan's place.
We didn't even go out.
Stayed home the whole day,only to go out for his takraw that night,spending time with his friends after that and mending his clothes from his cupboard which look like a 'kandang babi'.
We only got to sleep at 4am although knowing that we have to wake up early the next day.

Entahlah eh...I'm now lazy to go out even on a Saturday.
Mood nak kluar tu takde!
I'd rather stay home.
That's what I've been doing most of the past Saturdays.

Come Sunday,we head down to Sentosa.
Orang lain busy ber-raya,kite busy ber-suntan!
Good enough the sun was scorching hot!
Best!!!
We were there till 5,packed up and head to CWP for breakfast cum lunch cum dinner.
Dah penat-penat kat Sentosa,those guys can even go for takraw!
ish!~

But the later part of Sunday turned out to be the worst!
I found out some things that I never want to know.
Shall not elaborate.
My hopes just crashed at that very moment.
The trust decreased to zero!
I have never expected this.
Really...
He got me too disappointed with what went wrong.
What's in mind now is to just pack my bag & leave everything behind...

Ahhh!!!
This kinda situation is just so sucky!!

No mood already lah.
Sorry.


Till then.

After having him all to myself for 4 days straight as he was on MC for 2 days+2 off days,now I have to accept the fact that he's back to work!
chet!!
That 4 days spent was just wonderful.
We had our shares together with his mum,layan-ing her till she goes to sleep or vice-versa,accompanying him for his daily takraw,supper with our friends till 4am and lastly,our own quality time spent!
Best!!!
& just 2 days ago,after coming back from supper with our friends,as we were lying side by side,there he went...saying things...from how we met since he was 14,still in school shorts during 'our kentalan days' to what happened after that up till today.
& him again...pouring out all his feelings from day 1.
and there I go 'awwww....'
heh.
10 freaking long years!
Little did I know of that.

Now,I feel that I'm being rushed.
Rush for what?
That shall be a hush,hush for now.

&&& today is THURSDAY!
Thursday hari ape???
Thursday hari joget!!!
D to the B to the L to the O!
Yes,but it's not yet confirm.
Weekends are planned.
It's his off days both Saturday and Sunday.
Suke!!

Ahhh!
This is the best part of life,when you are all happy with it.
Yes,my life's getting a whole lot better as days passed.
Alhamdulillah...


Till then.

Alrite...

I'm all too lazy to update.

Therefore,let the pictures do okay!

All this was taken on Sunday,visiting on Mum's side + a pitstop at CGH to pick my uncle who was discharged.


Till then.

Morningg!!!
I just got back home from Ewan's place.
& this has been my daily routine except for the fact when it comes to weekends,& he's not working,I'll stay till the next morning/afternoon at his place and then I'll go back.

As I stayed home on the 2nd day of Raya,we continued raya-ing,continue-ing visiting houses on Dad's side along with this 2 kids.


& this small kid,just when I said,"Amir,1,2,3 smile..." he closed his eyes,continued my counts after 3 till 10,& thought I was playing hide and seek with him when all I wanted to do was to snap a picture of him.How cute!

Back on track,we managed to finish up only 4 houses and got home earlier than expected.I showered,got ready and went back to Ewan's place with the help of him picking me up.

Saturday.
We stayed home.
No visitings done.
Parents was prioritising more on my lil bro's ongoing PSLE,therefore we stayed home just for him to do his revisions.
While I,went out to Ewan's place,having those quality time spent from 3pm,then over to his takraw game and lepaking sessions after that till 1am,got home,grabbed some food,cut his nails for him (macam boss!) & off to get some sleep till 5am as I'm heading home & also because he was supposed to be on his morning shift today.But as we woke up,he gently whispered to me that his body is too tired (alasan kan!?).
Kalau dah gitu,ape jawabnye?
MC lah!
Yes,he'll be on MC today & tomorrow,which will mean that there'll be more quality time till wednesday before he resumes for work on Thursday.
yeay-ness!!!

Today,will be going out visiting on Mum's side,together with aunts and uncles + their families.
Therefore,I shall stop here and get a short nap before turning to a zombie when I'm out later.

Till then.

This was my first day of Raya.
All went smoothly not until when we got home last night,mom received a call saying that her 2nd elder brother was admitted to hospital because of a heart attack and had to go for a major operation right there and then.
Thankfully,I'm on 2 days leave.
Mom has been out since morning to the hospital while I mend the house.
Insya'allah,he'll be fine.


Till then.

To all:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA,

MOHON MAAF,ZAHIR & BATIN!