I was on MC on Friday.
Had fever due to the swollen gums I had from the growing wisdom tooth.
I couldn't even talk properly and had to rely on porridge for meals.
So sickening!
And up till today,it's not getting any better.
Hopefully by tomorrow so I can eat better food rather than porridge!
How was my V-day?
Nothing special since I don't celebrate.
It's like everyday is a love day for me.
I went out from home as early as 0830am for Ewan's tournament.
But yesterday's match was not a full day basis.
So he ended his game at 1pm,bus-ed back to his place for him to change and then to my place for me to change,then train-ed to town.
We had Sanur for late lunch cum dinner and just walked around,shopped a little and then back home to his place.
Last night was a mess,after I found out things that really disappoint me.
I really don't know till when he can keep disappointing me.
This is not the first since we got back together.
How many chances can I keep giving him?
How many sorries can I tolerate?
And the sad thing is,after 5 months,he's still saying he's trying his best to change?
What is that for?
Is this what I deserved for trying to be a good fiancee for the second time,promising to my very own self that I will change for the best for us,for the future that we have been wanting 2 years ago,promising to myself that history won't repeat,promising to myself that I will never hurt him like I did before...?
Or is this what I deserved for doing shits to him and that it's coming back to me?
I've never asked anything much from you since we got back,but all I've asked for is the old you....
Sometimes I think it's true when people say,'The person you love most,will be the person who hurts you the most."
Today will be the semi-finals and finals of yesterday's tournament which I'm not able to tag along as he will be going to work after that.
&&& he was telling me yesterday that he has been asked to go for the National team training next tuesday.
That's definitely an achievement for him but hopefully when he's already committed in the national training,we both won't drift apart due to our busy schedules.
Whatsmore when I think he sometimes has to go overseas for trainings and tournaments just like this coming May or so that he might be going Australia for tournament.
So,hopefully today they will be another champion!
Till then.
Had fever due to the swollen gums I had from the growing wisdom tooth.
I couldn't even talk properly and had to rely on porridge for meals.
So sickening!
And up till today,it's not getting any better.
Hopefully by tomorrow so I can eat better food rather than porridge!
How was my V-day?
Nothing special since I don't celebrate.
It's like everyday is a love day for me.
I went out from home as early as 0830am for Ewan's tournament.
But yesterday's match was not a full day basis.
So he ended his game at 1pm,bus-ed back to his place for him to change and then to my place for me to change,then train-ed to town.
We had Sanur for late lunch cum dinner and just walked around,shopped a little and then back home to his place.
Last night was a mess,after I found out things that really disappoint me.
I really don't know till when he can keep disappointing me.
This is not the first since we got back together.
How many chances can I keep giving him?
How many sorries can I tolerate?
And the sad thing is,after 5 months,he's still saying he's trying his best to change?
What is that for?
Is this what I deserved for trying to be a good fiancee for the second time,promising to my very own self that I will change for the best for us,for the future that we have been wanting 2 years ago,promising to myself that history won't repeat,promising to myself that I will never hurt him like I did before...?
Or is this what I deserved for doing shits to him and that it's coming back to me?
I've never asked anything much from you since we got back,but all I've asked for is the old you....
Sometimes I think it's true when people say,'The person you love most,will be the person who hurts you the most."
Today will be the semi-finals and finals of yesterday's tournament which I'm not able to tag along as he will be going to work after that.
&&& he was telling me yesterday that he has been asked to go for the National team training next tuesday.
That's definitely an achievement for him but hopefully when he's already committed in the national training,we both won't drift apart due to our busy schedules.
Whatsmore when I think he sometimes has to go overseas for trainings and tournaments just like this coming May or so that he might be going Australia for tournament.
So,hopefully today they will be another champion!
Till then.
