2 weeks ago,I have the thought to defer the wedding.
In a sudden,I just felt that I lost the confidence,trust,faith and everything.
I even lied to him that the reason I wanted to defer was about financial.
Which is also a little true lah...but more of the 2nd line,if you get what I meant.
The feeling of insecure,the feeling of not wanting to get married,the feeling of wantingg to back out at the very last minute...comes angd go.
Playing with my feelings and my imagination will just imagine for the worst.
After considering and much thinkings,we will still go ahead with the plan as I'm afraid that if I were to defer,caterers and mak andams won't be available at the very last minute.
So in December,hopefully we both will be able to do the cards,berkats and marriage course.
Insya'allah...I'm really hoping and praying when the day comes,things are all settled.
Getting married...is really a tough thing!
Next,I'm really counting my days to December as we'll be going back kampong.
Twice in a year!
Kampong pon kampong lah eh since the purpose is to meet his dad and talk about the wedding.
Atleast,being away,de-stress the mind a little.
Sister will be leaving for Australia for her school trip this Sunday and will be back 7 or 8 days later.
I am definitely gonna miss her!
Enjoy your trip okay!
Untung betol budak-budak sekarang eh!
They get to travel here and there!
Kalau kite time dulu-dulu,camping pon setakat kat sekolah je!
If I could turn back time,I wanna be 15 to 18 years old again...
Ahhh...sesungguhnyer,aku dah tua!
Ok,enough for now.
Gotta go and get ready.
Till then.
In a sudden,I just felt that I lost the confidence,trust,faith and everything.
I even lied to him that the reason I wanted to defer was about financial.
Which is also a little true lah...but more of the 2nd line,if you get what I meant.
The feeling of insecure,the feeling of not wanting to get married,the feeling of wantingg to back out at the very last minute...comes angd go.
Playing with my feelings and my imagination will just imagine for the worst.
After considering and much thinkings,we will still go ahead with the plan as I'm afraid that if I were to defer,caterers and mak andams won't be available at the very last minute.
So in December,hopefully we both will be able to do the cards,berkats and marriage course.
Insya'allah...I'm really hoping and praying when the day comes,things are all settled.
Getting married...is really a tough thing!
Next,I'm really counting my days to December as we'll be going back kampong.
Twice in a year!
Kampong pon kampong lah eh since the purpose is to meet his dad and talk about the wedding.
Atleast,being away,de-stress the mind a little.
Sister will be leaving for Australia for her school trip this Sunday and will be back 7 or 8 days later.
I am definitely gonna miss her!
Enjoy your trip okay!
Untung betol budak-budak sekarang eh!
They get to travel here and there!
Kalau kite time dulu-dulu,camping pon setakat kat sekolah je!
If I could turn back time,I wanna be 15 to 18 years old again...
Ahhh...sesungguhnyer,aku dah tua!
Ok,enough for now.
Gotta go and get ready.
Till then.
