Now..I just have the urge to pen some thoughts or maybe what's happening over the weekends.
Indeed,I have things...bothering my mind a little,just that I don't know how to bring it up.
My weekends was well-spent.
Family bondings.
Bbq-ing at my crib and everybody was there.
It has been so long since we last gathered for this event at my place.
It was funnn...I just love it when it comes to family events,and twister was the craze!!!
Ended the day almost to midnight.
Come Sunday,initial plan was to go Hortpark,but since there was some hiccups and my neverending migraines,I ditched the idea to go there.
Left the house only at 0430 pm and train-ed to Town to meet the other 2 of my cousins.
It was only lunch at Far East then to Esplanade for a little camwhore before we made our last pit stop in Tampines.
I shall have to plan more outings for us cousins!
Let's talk a little on my personal life.
December is ending soon.
And after that,I'm left with say...11 months before the big day.
Marriage is not a small thing.
It's a very major commitment in life.
After what happened,I still have doubts settling down although I know how big the shit he did was,he will still be the one who is able to look after me till God knows when...
He'll still be the one who is able to tolerate my super fucked up temper,
He'll still be the one who is able to give me what I want,
and the list goes on...
I still see all that in him.
But what I'm afraid is that...what if history repeats,even after we are married?
That is what fears me the most.
Coz as I know...leopard never change its spots.
And just recently...I have been enjoying life with the people around me.
Since the incident,I thought to myself that maybe,I should start being a little independent.
I've started going out with friends,cousins and whatever plans there is...just to avoid myself from thinking too much.
I'll just follow the flow,to where it leads me to...
I'm tired of doing the thinkings...I'm tired of the cries,just to make myself feel better.
I just hope 2010,will be a better year for me.
2009,I shall throw far,far away...but the deep scars,shall stay put with me wherever I go,till whenever...
I...just wanna be happy!
Till then.
Indeed,I have things...bothering my mind a little,just that I don't know how to bring it up.
My weekends was well-spent.
Family bondings.
Bbq-ing at my crib and everybody was there.
It has been so long since we last gathered for this event at my place.It was funnn...I just love it when it comes to family events,and twister was the craze!!!
Ended the day almost to midnight.
Come Sunday,initial plan was to go Hortpark,but since there was some hiccups and my neverending migraines,I ditched the idea to go there.
Left the house only at 0430 pm and train-ed to Town to meet the other 2 of my cousins.
It was only lunch at Far East then to Esplanade for a little camwhore before we made our last pit stop in Tampines.
I shall have to plan more outings for us cousins!Let's talk a little on my personal life.
December is ending soon.
And after that,I'm left with say...11 months before the big day.
Marriage is not a small thing.
It's a very major commitment in life.
After what happened,I still have doubts settling down although I know how big the shit he did was,he will still be the one who is able to look after me till God knows when...
He'll still be the one who is able to tolerate my super fucked up temper,
He'll still be the one who is able to give me what I want,
and the list goes on...
I still see all that in him.
But what I'm afraid is that...what if history repeats,even after we are married?
That is what fears me the most.
Coz as I know...leopard never change its spots.
And just recently...I have been enjoying life with the people around me.
Since the incident,I thought to myself that maybe,I should start being a little independent.
I've started going out with friends,cousins and whatever plans there is...just to avoid myself from thinking too much.
I'll just follow the flow,to where it leads me to...
I'm tired of doing the thinkings...I'm tired of the cries,just to make myself feel better.
I just hope 2010,will be a better year for me.
2009,I shall throw far,far away...but the deep scars,shall stay put with me wherever I go,till whenever...
I...just wanna be happy!
Till then.
